FBF Baby Emma 2003




They say having kids will change you. This is Emma and I. In these photos I have been a father for 6 months. I was broke and we lived in a hotel in Albuquerque New Mexico. Our neighbors were Junkies and Whores. Something had to change. I really thought that one day I would wake up and start making the decisions fathers made. The reality is, having kids makes you look at yourself. What is also true is you never stop looking at yourself. How can I be better?

It’s been over a decade since we lived in a trailer behind the hotel. I’m still not done trying to figure out how to be a grown up. Admitting my faults is always the first step.

Matt Hodel


  1. creepy Gary on February 21, 2015 at 12:12 pm

    Love ya bro

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